6.21.13

I should be working on cookies right now. Orders. Cookies for special moments. Cookies that I've been looking forward to making! But my body hurts and the baby keeps waking up. It hurts my heart to say/write this but I need to take a break from cookies. I've let 2 people down and cancelled their orders because of my health or my kids and I am ashamed by that. I don't want that to be me. I want to have an amazing name for myself and what I make. Right now I physically cannot give 100% and I hate that. I need to figure out what is going on with my health. I need to keep these precious children and also my husband my top priority. 

I hope I'll be able to pick up the tips and icing again soon. For now it's in Gods hands. 

6.10.13

Feeling tired. The mundane is wearing me thin. I've read books and made plans and dug deep but can't shake my lack of motivation. I want to be more for my husband and more for my children. I keep saying once I finish this, once this is clean or organized, once the routines happen... Then I'll shake this feeling. Just not yet. Feeling overwhelmed. Feeling helpless that I have friends hurting from problems greater than my own and I am unable to do anything for them.

Right now my baby just woke up and I can hear him babbling and laughing. Time for snuggles to lift my spirit.